I have sort of always been known for my hair.
It was my safety blanket and my shield.
It was thick, long and shiny.
Why would anyone want to cut something off that so many girls have to buy?
Because it was my identity.
I had to part with it because it was all I had known for years.
I had been carrying around the past 10 years of emotional baggage, fights, break ups, celebrations, depressions, failures and successes in my hair.
You shed your skin, you clip your nails, you shave your body hair, you change your clothes, you take off makeup, you lose weight, but your hair just hangs around.
It goes through your day, everyday, and holds on to everything you experience.
My hair was beautiful, but the emotional damage behind it wasn’t.
I was terrified however to cut it, how could I chop off something that had been with me through everything? We had been together for so long, I couldn’t even imagine life without all that hair.
That hair covered up my fat days, makeup free days, ugly lazy clothes I wore around, insecurities, and in the end, me.
I was my hair.
Where did I go?
Why couldn’t I exist without it?
It had to go.
I had to find me again.
Terrified I walked into the salon and took one last photo.
WASH. RINSE. REPEAT. BRUSH. CLIP. CHOP. SNIP. SNIP. BLOW. STYLE.
I survived. I am here. This is me. There I am.
If you have been thinking about making the chop at all … I highly recommend you do it. My husband made a comment to me this past weekend. He said, “I feel like everything about you has changed since you cut your hair. You’re lighter, in every way. Happier.. just different. I like it.” and I said, “That’s exactly how I feel.”
This coming from a man that begged me not to cut my hair. Loved my long hair with a passion and now he says I should never grow it out again.
Some might say I looked better, more feminine or younger with long hair, and you might be right. But I feel free now, like everything in my life has a fresh clean start. I instantly felt a re-invigoration for life! What a beautiful concept, all because of a Haircut!
Oh and…. getting ready is such a breeze now.
If you are keen for some hair tutorials, let me know!
P.S. – If you are looking for a good hairstylist, I go to Brittny from SCAR on Kloof.
Tell her Torie sent you! 😉